Thursday, April 2, 2009
Today is Amy's Birthday. Remi is a fighter. She has more heart and strength than anyone I have ever met in my life. I am very proud to be her daddy. I draw all my strength from a 2 and a half week old. She has beaten all the odds. The doctor told me today that she has a 1% chance to live and I was happy, because she lives to beat these types of odds. I hope all of you get to meet her some day. She has changed my life and everyone around her, and for that matter people who aren't even around her. I always used to wonder if my life has impacted any ones around me. Some would say yes some would say no. If I would have passed away in high school or college would they shut the school down the day of my funeral. Well, Remi has accomplished my goal for myself in 2 weeks. I think she has impacted more people than Amy and I put together in 2 very short weeks. I am the proudest dad that ever existed. As long as she keeps fighting for me, I will keep fighting for her. I truly think God offered Remi eternal happiness in heaven with him a couple of days ago. She stared God down and said "No", I am going to stay and fight. I have stared people down and got what I wanted but I have never looked God in the face and told him to take his golden offer and post pone it until I was ready.
I told my boss this morning that I thought hell would look a little different that it does. I thought it was full of fire, heat, and bad people. Well my hell is my daughter fighting for her life and there is nothing I can do about it. My hell is full of loving people offering any and every tangible gift possible when that can't help us. My hell is the thought of my daughter passing away very soon and maybe even on her mommies birthday.
So, Keep praying we appreciate it. It does not go unnoticed and is very helpful. Well, I will keep everyone posted but I think thats enough to digest for a little while.