Today is Amy's Birthday. Remi is a fighter. She has more heart and strength than anyone I have ever met in my life. I am very proud to be her daddy. I draw all my strength from a 2 and a half week old. She has beaten all the odds. The doctor told me today that she has a 1% chance to live and I was happy, because she lives to beat these types of odds. I hope all of you get to meet her some day. She has changed my life and everyone around her, and for that matter people who aren't even around her. I always used to wonder if my life has impacted any ones around me. Some would say yes some would say no. If I would have passed away in high school or college would they shut the school down the day of my funeral. Well, Remi has accomplished my goal for myself in 2 weeks. I think she has impacted more people than Amy and I put together in 2 very short weeks. I am the proudest dad that ever existed. As long as she keeps fighting for me, I will keep fighting for her. I truly think God offered Remi eternal happiness in heaven with him a couple of days ago. She stared God down and said "No", I am going to stay and fight. I have stared people down and got what I wanted but I have never looked God in the face and told him to take his golden offer and post pone it until I was ready.
I told my boss this morning that I thought hell would look a little different that it does. I thought it was full of fire, heat, and bad people. Well my hell is my daughter fighting for her life and there is nothing I can do about it. My hell is full of loving people offering any and every tangible gift possible when that can't help us. My hell is the thought of my daughter passing away very soon and maybe even on her mommies birthday.
So, Keep praying we appreciate it. It does not go unnoticed and is very helpful. Well, I will keep everyone posted but I think thats enough to digest for a little while.
Ben-Everything you write is like poetry. They say it takes pain to be a good poet. Love you.
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday Amy...I truly hope and pray that your one and only birthday wish comes true!!
ReplyDeleteI've been thinking about you guys all day today. I'll be back this weekend. Happy Birthday Amy. Everyone is praying very hard for you guys.
ReplyDeleteHAPPY BIRTHDAY AMY! We'll keep the prayers coming! LOL
ReplyDeleteRemi, Amy, Ben, Sue, Mike, and family. We are thinking of you. You are in our thoughts and prayers.
ReplyDeleteTeri and Frank
Ben and Amy.....Remi is beautiful. I am praying for you all. Ben, I have always been proud of you and I know that you have had an impact on many, many lives. Your daughter is a fighter like her daddy. I love you all.
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Ben and Amy..you are in my thoughts and prayers daily. Treasure that beautiful little girl..she is truly a reflection of her mommy and daddy! Ben, I am so proud of the man and father you have become!
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To the Remers and the Schimmings.... i think about you everyday and everynight. Ben and Amy you are strong and amazing people as well as Remi. You have great friends and family for support! What Ben has wrote touches me so much! You are all fighters and i look up to you guys for that. I love ya both! Kasie
ReplyDelete*Through every storm there is a rainbow.... It just depends on where you're standing*
Happy Birthday Amy! Wish you were spending it with a little less worry. You guys are so strong and we continue to pray for your precious little Remi and for all of you as you continue to be by her side. We love you. Skip & Judy
ReplyDeleteAmy,
ReplyDeleteI had this poem sent to me when Joslyn was in the PICU. It truly helped me and my hope is that it too will help you and Ben. All of us here at the Enrichment Center are keeping you in our prayers! ~Jody Mohring (kasie's sister)~
“A meeting was held quite far from Earth!
It’s time again for another birth.
Said the Angels to the LORD above,
This Special Child will need much love.
Her progress may be very slow,
Accomplishments she may not show.
And she’ll require extra care
From the folks she meets down there.
So let’s be careful where she’s sent,
We want her life to be content.
Please LORD, find the parents who
Will do a special job for you.
They will not realize right away
The leading role they’re asked to play,
But with this child sent from above
Comes stronger faith and richer love.
And soon they’ll know the privilege given
In caring for their gift from Heaven.
Their precious charge, so meek and mild,
Is HEAVEN’S VERY SPECIAL CHILD.”
Such a precious little girl!
ReplyDeleteBen & Amy, I have been thinking about you and your little angel. Sending prayers your way. I pray that she continues to be brave and fight. I pray that she knows how much she is loved by the two of you and your family and friends. May you seek comfort from God and trust His plan for Remi.
Love to the three of you!
Abby K
Amy, Ben and Remi...you are all in our thoughts and prayers. We are so proud to have such a beautiful little girl added to our family. Keep and praying and fighting. We definitely will be everyday for you guys.
ReplyDeleteWe love you guys!
Alan, Christie, Jacob and Madison